28 Jan 2011 Part 2

Hmmmm... I have be very very tried of giving and giving and giving not stop
Somehow i feel that i am being take for granted but i alway don't show it out... maybe i should start showing it out and start saying no to thing i do not want to do. haiz but that is so not me...

Recently i was filling up some form and i was trying to answer to the qus but i found out i totally have problem answering. think i just do not want to give standard answer and smoke myself off it...
i find that i am not as close as what i think i m with God and i think i should be closer before i serve the younger youth in anyway i can.. think it will be one of the taget i going to set for 2011. to be closer to God and serve the younger youth.

Recently someone that i am super care for is sick and i feel so useless. i just cannot do anything but just being a talk but no action person. I am just like saying
- Rest Early
- Drink more Water
- Have your meal le mah
- How are you feeling now

Beside all this i just cannot do anything more le...

God tell me what should i do to better take care of the person. although i know there is alot of ppl around her will take care of her too lah... but i just feel so unreasonable just doing a talk but no action person Haiz... anyway if you do not want to talk can just let me know i am not someone that is not reasonable don't have to give me the attitude and after that say sorry... is no use after all... a cut is a cut what you do also cannot remove it anymore... although there is alot of cut on it after time but it is still painful to hear someone that i care for super alot to give me attitude lor... it just making me think for what i do so much and wishing daily that you will be happy daily and ___________________ (if you know what i want write den you know don't know den forget it). =(

A post full of complain again... what a nice thing to do on my blog... lolz...